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Author: kcarpenter
• Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009

funnyI think this is my life theme. God continues to throw this motif at me every possible chance He gets, and boy do I need it!  I heard it in my readings in Proverbs, at my personal training workshop, and even at work.  I think I get it.  The problem is applying it!

So, as you can imagine, the reason for my lack of posting is my busyness.  I have been going nonstop for months.  Pretty much since April.  Let me do a quick recap.  We went on vacation over Easter Break, where I was challenged to keep my mouth shut and pray about something, and I didn’t, so I swallowed my foot, not just sticking it my mouth mind you…  Luckily, I have gracious friends. So on vacation we went to California where we got to eat fabulous pie in Julian, went to Adventure City in Anaheim, visited a different but great Calvary Chapel in Temecula, went wine tasting (Chloe didn’t do that), visited some great friends (Elinor and the Spencer’s), went to the beach, revisited Camp Pendleton, ate some great food, and played with awesome kids!  It was a much needed break!

May was also another busy month, Paul learned that he had to take another pay cut.  He was blessed to go on a great Men’s retreat in the beginning of the month.  He had the opportunity to fellowship and meet a lot of great men.  God really moved in his heart, he said.  I learned yet another valuable lesson because I made some more mistakes that again hindered the growth of another relationship with my lack of discernment and my thoughts, not so much my mouth this time.  However, I also went on a women’s retreat, and was forced to slow down, which lead me to the words of wisdom to rectify the situation.  If only I would have turned to Him first and really looked at all angles of the situation, I would have seen the error in my ways to begin with, what a novel idea, right?!  I was blessed with gaining new sisters in Christ that prayed over me and now have a better sense of community with our congregation.

June, what a month this has been! First off, my mouth got me in trouble for the third time.  Again, thanks to graceful friends, I was forgiven.  (I then studied Proverbs and got all kinds of insight and wisdom about holding the tongue.)  Paul found out that he also had to take a week of unpaid vacation in July.  His company did, however, pay for his tuition reimbursement for the summer months, so that was a huge blessing.  The next day, we lost Paul’s grandfather, which has brought a multitude of feelings out for all of us.  I did not deal with it well at all.  Good fruit has not poured out from my tipped cup.  Satan has had huge victories in my life.  I think this really was the final straw to the realization that I need to do something about my lack of spiritual discipline.  I have harbored so much anger, rage, unforgiveness, judgement, bitterness, pride, and lets not forget self righteousness in the past couple of months. If I would have evangelized to an unbeliever  about Christ, they would have nothing to do with being part of our family in Christ.  

This past weekend was BIG for me… I mean really BIG.  I went to an NASM personal training workshop in Arlington, VA.  God brought people into my life who taught me how to train effectively for life goals,and little did they know they were teaching me a spiritual lesson of endurance as well.  In NASM they stress that Core Stability and maintaining postural alignment in all you do is absolutely paramount.  If you can’t stick to the basics, you have no right to advance.  You have to do it slowly.  If you move to quick, and compromise that one foundation, not only will you not train effectively, but you are setting yourself up to get hurt and regress.  Sound familiar, check out Hebrews 12.  If we forget the spiritual disciplines,which are the fundamentals of Christianity, we will not receive the prize of faith!  Good stuff, huh?!?  

Just like the body, one compensation from the truth, causes major catastrophe to the whole body.  (I am amazed at how they corralate, God is such an awesome creator!) So, in personal training, we need to take an initial assessment of where we are at, find out what our goals are (not just the ultimate ones, but small ones too), put a plan together of how we are going to achieve them, and make a realistic time line of what fruit we would like to see. Then, we have to start at the fundamentals, working on our core, the basic disciplines, then we can add other things into our routine.  However, if our core isn’t strong, we have to step back, reasses, stretch out the impedences and over compensations that are hindering us from functioning properly as God made us to work.  

I have made some huge assessments these last few days.  I have decided my goals are to exercise the gifts of encouragement and intercession that God has given me a passion for.  I will achieve these goals by setting a very strict schedule and diet (spiritually, mentally, and nutritionally). I have been in a Monthly Challenge with some women in church, and I think I am going to kick it up a notch.  My realistic goal is to study the Word for at least an hour 5 days out of the week, pray 30 mins 5 days every week, do resistance training 3 days a week, at least 45 minutes of cardio 5 days out of the week, eat the required amounts of calories 6 days a week, and log it.  In 4 weeks I will be reassessing my plan and goals to make sure my core foundations are aligned properly!  (Does the turtle have his good core stability to carry his load?) HA!    

 

Author: kcarpenter
• Saturday, May 09th, 2009

After much prayer and consideration.  I feel that I need to clarify and apologize for including irrelevant events and painting my ex husband in a bad light by misconstruing information.  He is a very loving father and a very caring person.  I included an instance in my testimony that I had no right to include and should have asked his permission before I wrote it.  I need to clarify that he is not, by any means an abusive person.  Due to immaturity and selfishness, I knew how to provoke him to the utmost pinnacle of anger and hurt, and the night that I wrote about was in fact, a product of one of the arguments.   Again, I do want to stress and reiterate that he is not an abusive person.  It was not a Christian fruit of the spirit on my part to write so negatively about him as it was not a detrimental part of my salvation, but was in fact, speculation and my point of view.  I do pray that no wrong judgment would be made towards him for my folly.

I do want to say publicly that the whole purpose for the testimony was to admit that I am an absolutely sinful person and to show God’s mercy through changing me, not to point out or condemn anyone else.  I did not include all of my sins as I did not want to edify them, nor did I feel like I needed to list every sin.  I know and believe that God is merciful and He examines my heart and knows that my intent of my testimony was not malicious and that I do have a repentant heart for any misrepresentation that I might have made.  I do want to reiterate, however, that I have found amazing freedom through the grace of Christ Jesus and know that I am now whiter than snow.  I am guilty of some absolutely horrible things, and for that I am truly sorry for the hurts I have caused and the friendships I have lost.  I pray that one day I can restore hurt relationships and that they will truly be a light for God’s glory.

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Author: kcarpenter
• Thursday, April 23rd, 2009

praying1At church last night we were in Jeremiah 44 and it was observed that when women are corrupt and are allowed to lead their families astray, nations fall and calamity will soon follow  (thought synopsized by me).   I would like to first off say that  the corruption of women typically occurs when men lack leadership and direction.  For example, yes it was Eve’s sin to eat the apple, but she ate it due to lack of leadership just like the false idol worship in Jeremiah 44 that is being referenced.  When I look at our society today, I feel it is very true.  Nearly 40 percent of babies born in the United States in 2007 were delivered by unwed mothers, according to data released last month by the National Center for Health Statistics. The 1.7 million out-of-wedlock births, of 4.3 million total births, marked a more than 25 percent jump from five years before.

As a whole, the morality of our country has declined significantly in the past 5 years.  Children are not raised in complete families and are not shown what healthy biological relationships with both parents looks like.  The family isn’t how “God inteded”.  Boys are not taught how to be men, how to treat women, or what a family should look like.  Women are not given the opportunity to be adored by their fathers and develop insecurities, and they lack value and self worth.  Not to mention the lack of attention from their parent because of work obligations.  These examples are just the secular devoids.  When you add in lacking Christian principles, it is even more severe.  Both sexes have a skewed vision of their role and value and the value of everyone else.  A survey of 108 rapists undertaken by Raymond A. Knight and Robert A. Prentky revealed the 60 percent came from female-headed homes,. 70 percent of those describable as ‘violent’ came from female-headed homes. 80 percent of those motivated by ‘displaced anger’ came from female-headed (single-parent) homes.
“No-Fault Divorce: Proposed Solutions to a National Tragedy,” 1993 Journal of Legal Studies 2, 19, citing R. Knight and R. Prentky, The Developmental Antecedents and Adult Adaptations of Rapist Subtypes, 14 CRIMINAL JUSTICE AND BEHAVIOR 403-426 (1987).

Just like snow rolling down hill, these misconceptions and flaws become more dangerous and out of control as time progresses.  As a result promiscuity, disrespect, selfishness, abuse, and insecurity are the norm.  Can you see how this generational sin has taken us to where we are now?  How the value of an embryo is gone to cover up sin (either a woman’s through promiscuity or a man’s through rape).  64.4% of all abortions are performed on never-married women; Married women account for 18.4% of all abortions and divorced women obtain 9.4% (Center For Bio Ethical Reform) and according to the NY Times, only 1% of the abortions performed are out of rape and incest.

So, what can we do to change this?  Rest in God, repent, and don’t run away from Him!  However, if we don’t, and continue down the spiralling disobedient path by running away from Him, the same thing that happened to the Isrealites in Jeremiah 44 will happen to us. 2 Chronicles 7:14 gives us great hope in God’s mercy “if my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and forgiven their sins and will heal their land.”